Open With Prayer
For me, I used to live in fear of His holiness, but not in a healthy kind of fear. A balanced view of His holiness and His love will create a healthy fear; but I was just plain scared that He would never be pleased with me and that I didn’t deserve His love. I couldn’t just accept love; I had to earn it. This kept me busy, but never able to feel His unconditional love. Because to me, it was all based on my performance. So I exhausted myself trying to say the right words, think holy thoughts, follow the Bible just right, look like the “good child.” And I would get hard on myself if I didn’t follow “the formula” just right.